The Mish-Mash Blog

In usual fashion, I don't have a good concrete idea that I can devote an entire blog post too, so I'm gonna state my thoughts in point form:

- Larry's blog about people who judge got me to thinking about things that ultimately strayed away from the topic of judging. First, I think we're all always self-conscious about being judged even if it doesn't happen right away. It's like when you say something and the word is used in a wrong context, you accidentally call a he a she or vice versa, or you say something that seems completely random, there's always a recoil effect that happens right away. We all know it, it's that quick glance into everyone else's eyes to look for any sign of that flicker in eyesight, meaning they're gonna pounce.
Even today, I was at Staples doing my business when I decided to look at a pen that came in a fancy cylindrical plastic case. I couldn't quite get one out of the bin, until one finally gave way and the lid popped off with the whole thing falling on the floor. It wasn't too bad as only the lid came off and the rest stayed intact, but I picked it up right away and decided that it was my mission to get the lid back securely in place. Just as I was doing this, I realized what the scene might look like to other people: Some asian guy trying to open the package of a product and look inside before deciding to buy it, in true asian fashion. I wasn't really horrified by the idea of other people thinking that, in fact I laughed to myself and thought it kinda funny how people look like more of an ass in an attempt to do something good. Maybe that's why people don't do as much good anymore?
To go on with the judging theme, I think it really influences what we do or how we act at times. Just yesterday when I was applying for jobs at Kingsway, I came across at least 2 different occassions where my fear of judgement stopped me from applying at some places. Let me be more specific, I like to compare it to the infamous scene from Oliver Twist (though I've never seen the movie before):

(Oliver (Me) sheepishly walks towards the counter of the Telephone booth where 4 people are waiting and manning their stations. It's a long walk for Oliver in a completely empty store. Oliver finally reaches the counter with an anxious face as all 4 faces look down on him)

Oliver: Please sir.................may I have a job?

Fat Cafeteria Lady (Telephone Booth worker): (shouting) A JOB?!?!?! How dare you have the audacity to ask for a job!!! You want some of OUR work hours?! Get out you peasant!!!

(Oliver quickly scurries away with his resume still in hand and empty stomach in tow)


And.......scene! Okay that probably had no resemblance at all to the actual movie of Oliver Tiwst, but you get my picture. It feels as though the workers at the store are already acting as the jury to see if you should get the job or not. Another horrible thing is when the store is really busy and then you're forced to whip out your resume in front of other customers. Let's just say it's a very humbling experience to go in a store and ask for a job especially when you have to sell yourself and convince them why they should hire you in front of an audience. It also leaves me feeling like a cheap hooker...

- I'm currently 3 lbs over the previous weight that I used to base my 'lose 10 lbs by the end of February' goal on. Sorry, let me rephrase that into easier terms: I'm fatter than I was when I wanted to lose 10 lbs to begin with. It doesn't surprise me much really, considering my eating habits and the fact that I have an open bag of marshmallows by my feet right now. What's it for you ask? Well Larry tells me that I originally bought it for Chris so that he could put something in his hot chocolate, but that doesn't really apply much when I'm stuffing the Marshmallows down my face all by themselves.
I've realized that I need a plan of attack if I seriously want to hit this target by the specified time. The plan that I need to make eludes me at the moment, so I can't quite say what I'm gonna do or implement just yet.

- I went to A&W today and noticed that they had a special where you get 2 mama burgers for 4 bucks. So I ordered some mama burgers, and I really liked them..... Does that make me gay? =(

- I've applied at a total of over 20 places by now. So far I think the front runners who are most likely to give me a call back are Staples, Northtown Vehicle Registry, The Tea Place, Kingsway Customer Service, and the Virgin Mobile booth in Kingsway. All places that I wouldn't mind working at, so that's cool beans(1).


Like Larry's blog, this blog doesn't seem complete without a conclusion or ending to it. Well too bad, I'm lazy and I wanna play Call of Duty 4...

1: cool beans is a term that Creed uses from the Office when he tries to act young. Here's another classic moment with Creed.