Are you happy right now?

I know it's a bit dramatic, but I think it's a question that everyone seriously needs to ask themselves right this instant. If you're reading this right now, I want you to stop for a second and really ask yourself :


"Am I satisfied with my life or lifestyle? Is there anything that I'd like to do or do more often?"


I'm sure that everyone has come up with at least one thing that they're dissatisfied with or that they'd like to get done. So why is it that we aren't doing that? I really had to ask myself this question.

For me personally, when I asked myself what I would like to change about my life, the dissatisfied parts of life included many areas like my stagnant acting career, lack of working out, personal hygiene, eating properly, and learning many essential skills (like skating and swimming). Then once I figured out my goals, I started to ask myself what was really stopping me from achieving these goals? What I found was a huge list of excuses like lack of energy/sleep (which is totally my fault and can be corrected), laziness, not enough time, and lack of motivation.

One of the biggest reasons I found for myself not getting things done was that these just seemed to take lower priority than the trivial things that I usually consider necessities of my lifestyle. This is really retarded considering the list of useless tasks that I would normally partake in daily: my daily intake of World of Warcraft, organizing and downloading more music for my ipod, spending my daily quota of time on MSN messenger, and my daily time for watching my downloaded seasons of TV shows. Let's just say the list of things that I DO get done doesn't have any resemblance of what I'd like to get done with my free time. To be completely honest, that daily schedule of mine looks more like a young high schooler's daily plan than a 20 year old post secondary student's, but I digress.

So what's the gameplan? How am I gonna change this all around? Usually my response to that question would be "Let's just pack more things into the schedule and maximize every minute of the day." Anyone whose every tried that also knows that it doesn't work at all like how you first planned it. So my next best alternative would be to sacrifice all the trifle things in my life, and start working towards my future. This includes giving up more video gaming time, pointless msn chatting, pointless internet surfing, etc.

I have just suddenly felt this surge of motivation come into my life. Let's all face it, we're coming into our early 20's nowadays, there's no time to be clowning around all the time. Now I don't mean that I'm not gonna hang out with the friends and get in a few games every so often, because that's still lots of fun. I just mean that it's not going to be the centre of my life.

In short I would have to say that my biggest motivation for such a dramatic change is my relationship with God. Without pulling any punches and without trying to hide anything, I've come to completely rely on God to tell me which direction I should be going and how I should get there. And of course this sudden change of thinking has come from reading more literature on the topic, specifically the book that Kevin got me for Christmas which I don't remember the title of at the moment. Hehe sorry Kev, but thanks a lot for the book, it's a good read.

That's the most of it. I'd like to write more but I've got a class coming up right away and I gotta be sure to get there early. I hope I was able to stir the pot a little for anyone reading this, and I'd like to hear about anyone else deciding to change something about their own life around.