Holiday News

So it's been quite a while since I've blogged, and many things have happened. What I'm gonna try to attempt is to get all my ideas on paper before my brain kicks in and I overthink the grammar and all about what I'm writing about. I just find it usually kills the original meaning behind the message, making the blog therefore obselete. It might look horrible, but bare with me.

First thing is church. With it being Christmas and all, the church life has been quite the craze. I don't quite remember if I blogged about it yet, but I got baptised a while ago (12/12 actually). Anyhow it's pretty exciting, and things have just been going up and up. I also recently got the new role in the drama skit we presented just during Christmas Eve. It was the main role for a 5-10 min skit, but it felt really rewarding to just be able to be a part of a skit made for the sole purpose of making ppl feel good. Very hard to explain, but all and all, I can't complain for a number of reasons. One being I got to spend more time with Elizabeth (multimedia chick) during rehearsals and during the actual presentation. And as well, I'll admit that being the centre of attention in front on 500 ppl in our massive Christmas Eve service feels really good too. Seemed like everyone enjoyed it, and I'm glad altogether that I was able to take part. I had to put on eyeliner though, to make me look older and more haggard :S

Moving on, with the whole Elizabeth thing, it's kinda shaky. Basically the update on the situation is that I told her I couldn't do the gay looking drama thing with her anymore because I was too busy with other stuff (which I'm not really). The real reasons why I didn't want to be a part of it to begin with was the gay looking factor, and now the fact that it seems like she already has a boyfriend, at least to me (which kills my entire motivation). So yeah, she's trying hard to get me back into it, and even sending some of her lackeys to try and convince me, but unless I figure out she doesn't have a boyfriend, and she just wants to hook up with me, NO DICE!! The whole situation is really making me think more than I should have to, mainly because she seems to hit on me on a regular basis, yet nothing happens b/w us. Everyone tells me that she just does that to everyone and she's the flirtatious type, but to me it's just too good of an opportunity to dismiss it so quickly like that. Frustration...

Besides that, just after today's Christmas Eve service, I met up with another hot church friend of mine, Charisse. She's also a part of this local band that's played at a few places on Whyte before, so I think that's pretty cool. So I figured I'd buy her CD, and give a listen to it. It's really great stuff, and I found it totally worth it. The bummer is that I totally forgot to get her to sign it, AND she's decided to switch churches because she's found another one that seems to have a deeper connection with God and stuff like that. I'm really happy for her, but that's one less chick that I can possibly make a move on and I had a good chance with. Crap..

Speaking of hot chicks, I talked to a former co-worker/friend of mine from McDonalds recently, Kerri. I remember our good old times where we'd flirt playfully during work and it wouldn't really turn into anything because I was going out with Christine at the time, and she had a boyfriend as well. But now, after 2 years, seeing her again, I can notice a big change. Perhaps it was the moment, or the environment of her workplace, but it just seemed like we didn't have that same connection. Don't get me wrong, I'm not expecting her to completely hit on me again because I happen to be there, but we just weren't able to cut through the informal crap like we used to. Conversation topics turned into standard procedure such as: "When do you work until? Busy today? What are you up to nowadays?" It really does suck when I think about it. It's not like I didn't expect it to happen at all, but I didn't think it would get reduced to such a level. I think as human beings, we all have moments where we wish things could be like they used to. I know I've had that thought many times, but it's just too bad that it's not possible.

Hmm other stuff. I've also been watching more new releases for movies lately to theatres and to DVD. One particular movie, Zach Braff's "Garden State" sparked my interest especially. When you first watch the film, you don't really have any appreciation for it, as it seems like an artsy film with no importance to the outside world. But the more I think back on it, the more I begin to appreciate the subtleness of the film. It's amazing how Zach's writing mimic's the awkwardness of real life. It really is a film with very small impact on the world as a whole in it's plot, but it really does make a statement about life and the way we live it. It's strange but, it's possibly one of the first artsy fartsy films I've really enjoyed in a long time. Oh yeah, Natalie Portman is also in it, and they just make such a great duo. I think I might just go out and buy that movie!

Last thing I'm blogging about, I swear! I kinda had a small victory today. Just after dropping off Larry and Chris from a night of Texas Hold'em Poker, I decided to drop by the local 7-11 where Matt works to wish him and Merry Xmas and see how everything was going. After a long talk for about an hour or so, I started to get really hungry, seeing as it was almost 5 in the morning. So I went with my favourite, "The Super Big Pizza Sub." Now Matt, being notorious for being extra generous when working late nights at 7-11, offered to let me walk out with the sub for free, where he would count it as stolen the next morning. Me being half awake, and very hungry, I got very tempted to take him on this offer, as it was a decently expensive sub. But then I started to think about the situations and think about my values. I knew outright from there that it'd be stealing, though it would be from a billion dollar company, it would still be stealing. And I mean, if it being the early morning of Christmas day wasn't going to make me feel guilty enough, then I don't know what would have. But the place was barren, and I could easily get away with the free transaction and go home 6.41 richer. That's when I decided to pay for it. Although Matt had good intentions on giving it to me as almost a gift for Christmas Day, I knew that bottom line it would be stealing, and that I would have wronged SOMEONE in the world this fateful day. So I stuck to my guns, and decided to pay for it.

Lemme tell ya, it felt really good. I think the problem with most Christians and Catholics today is that they really decide to be followers of God's ways at selected times. When people can see them, and catch them for a wrongful act, they decide to play it safe. But whenever the world dishes them a dirty shortcut or a sinful break, they'll take it without hesitation. I really think that's what makes the difference b/w the true believers, and the selective believers. I'll admit, I've had my problems with it many times myself, but I think at some point you just need to make a stand and really ask yourself "Is what I'm doing truly right?" It may have been a small deed, but you've got to start somewhere.

P.S. My whole, workout everyday plan has failed miserably. Though that's the case, I'm not gonna just let myself take the whole holiday season off. I may not be at the stage I planned for, but that doesn't mean I have to give up completely. So I plan to work out as much as I can throughout the next week. Let me know if anyone is interested in joining me.

I'm off to bed, it's fricken late, and I work Christmas day from 4-10.

Happy Holidays everyone! I truly wish everyone the best of times, and an unforgetable holiday season!