So lately I've been feeling this new burden upon my current life. It took me a while to pinpoint what the burden was exactly, but I think I'm on the right track now. The burden, from my research, is lack of experience.

You know how everyone goes through very distinct stages of life where they have to learn some kind of new skill or way of life to almost let themselves grow. Yeah, regularly those come at separate parts of life, to ease the tension. But lately I've found that in my case, it seems like they've all come to one point.

I'll give you my list of new skills or hobbies that I've been trying to learn all at the same time. Some may sound very minor, and they are, but they just add up on you after a while:

- Learning to drive a car (Huge one).
- Training for an entirely new job, let alone job industry. (Another main one)
- Learning to take care of what laundry my dad doesn't get to.
- Learning how to iron clothes.
- Getting better at Basketball (a totally foreign and hated sport to me in the past).

Really, when you look at the list, there's only 2 big ones that ppl would count as significant. But the way I look at it, those ones are the ones that I have to deal with for a majority of my week (6 days of the week). And for the rest of my time when I should be unwinding and doing things to enjoy myself, I have to learn these other skills. I don't know, maybe I'm overthinking it, or maybe it was just a one-time thing, but lately I've just been having less confidence in myself because I totally suck at these things while everyone else has already learnt a majority of them in the past or don't have to deal with them at this point of time. It's really hard to explain, but I figure a guy can only take so much learning and change at one time before he starts to become self-conscious.

In theory of course, the whole learning as much as you can thing sounds ideal to everyone because it involves the most productive use of your time. But now knowing myself, it's very hard to be thrown into that kind of stuff without any kind security blanket such as old skills you were once good at. It just starts to really add up and really frustrate you because it seems, from the way everything is set up, that you're learning way slower than you should be, because everyone else is so experienced at what you're supposed to be learning. And that can just downright piss ppl off if experienced for a long time.

So I suppose the main purpose of this blog is to warn ppl about how irritable I can be at this time. If I seem to snap at you during an unappropriate time, or even during basketball or anything else, I'm pretty sure you guys know that I don't really mean it. That's just me letting out my frustration.. Also the other reason for this particular blog is because I think this whole discussion really reflects a good point about why ppl always tend to turn back to video games. I think that everyone experiencs this frustration of learning new things every so often, so ppl want to come back to that security blanket of a video game that they're really good at. And I think that's completely healthy, and even encouraged in some instances, as ppl can get VERY frustrated at times. But it should be kept in mind that too much of anything is bad for you, and some ppl almost become solely dependant on those games to get through everything. I really believe that a whole bunch of us are at that point, and that it can't be too healthy for us. We just become too cautious of ourselves and immerse ourselves in something we're good at, never learning new tricks.

Anyway, that was a really complicated and hard to explain blog. From reading my own blog, I can't help but notice that it's really hard for me to elaborate on things in writing. Man I need more english classes... Anyhow, that's it for me.