It's about 1:30 AM on this new dawning Monday. Being this late I figured, hey it's time to blog! WHY NOT?!

So I finally went to my first church service of the year! In fact, the last time I've been there was back in mid november, so I've felt pretty bad about it. As planned me and Kev jogged our way through the relentless chill and snow of the morning, around half the lack, and down the final stretch of Bishop Savern to Mary Butterworth School. I'll tell ya, I'm convinced that Kev is secretly a robot from the planet Nivek that was sent down here for the sole purpose of running and making fat ppl feel bad about themselves. Haha but really he's a great runner, and I've gotta commend him for it because not once did he stop or slowdown in our jog to Church, whilst I stopped about 3-4 times. Hats off to ya, Kev!

Anyhow, like I was saying, I attended church today for the first time in a while. And I felt GREAT! It's just so refreshing to see all of the smiling faces and welcoming handshakes as you walk into the building. Even if you don't know the person there, they'll greet you and give you a warm handshake. Sure that might be there job or whatever, but hey, it still feels like home. I really feel like I've been rejuvenated and given the gift of life. Just the message and the singing meant so much to me and really moved me. Afterwards, I bought a tape of Pastor Dwayne's sermon 2 weeks earlier from his recommendation. It was a sermon about what was going on in his life. It really does give you some insight about how bad things happen to pastors too. I think a majority of ppl are convinced that because pastors or priests have such a connection with God that they are less vulnerable to disaster. And after listening to that tape, I can say that the theory falls flat.

I think once again it has come to that time where one must reflect on their lives. Maybe a big reason why I feel this way is because of my recent catching up on Ranald's blog and his talk of life. Or maybe because of the church service I feel obligated to. It doesn't really matter, because I'm gonna reflect anyway :P (it'll be brief though).

Just some scattered thoughts. My brain really isn't in the mode to put these into big figurative and paradoxic sentences that reflect on the true meaning of life. So just deal with it:

- school has got to be a bigger priority to me. too much is riding on it for me to fail, but i'm feeling confident that it's beginning to look up. let's hope it's not just me being overconfident.
- i really do hope i get a high enough gpa to get into the U this year. at first i registered wrong because i didn't send any transcripts but only an application, thankfully to my relief, the other documents have a later due date, so i can still make it if i try. if not, next year is gonna be a mega tough year, and i don't know what i'll do if i don't make it. i'm utterly terrified at the moment.
- everyone keeps telling me to get my license. well it's kinda tough to comprimise karate/full time schooling/ and drivers training all at the same time, so cut me some slack.
- i really have a whole bunch of work to do when it comes to getting to know God. i'm really grateful though that he's put me around the right environment with friends and family that support me with whatever path i choose. i'm truly fortunate, and i hope others will find the same path that has been bestowed upon me.
- i'm not really physically fit i tragically figured out today. mainly the fact that i get so tired quickly when it comes to any cardio work really scares me. here i am bragging about having worked out for almost a full year now nonstop, and a 10 year old kid can probably outrun me completely. time to get some cardio going i guess.
- another thing that isn't too fit about me is my legs training. frick i need to work out my legs so badly. you have no idea how bad it is to be teaching karate, and to not be able to show your students a proper kick. everyone must know from now about my rare arthritis of the back and my hip problem, but i hate using those as excuses. sometimes i really wonder how much of the problem is really uncontrollable, or am i just using them as crutches so that i don't have to work as hard. i'll tell ya though, leg pain really sucks...
- as for the relationship situation, i'm not too worried. now that i'm in the right state of mind, i know that if a girl comes along then so be it. God has a plan for all of us, and if he wants me to wait for my ideal girl, then that's what i'll have to do. hehe although that won't stop me from trying to kickstart the waiting process through hitting on ppl, i don't think anyone or anything can stop that.
- i've been hanging out with kev now for a good 3 or so weeks in a row. it seems like we're getting to know each other more, and that's totally cool because i've always felt bad about not knowing too much about him. i've really grown to realize how dependable of a friend he is. all i've really got to say is that it's been really fun!

Yeah I guess that's pretty much it for tonight. I suppose I should get SOME sleep for tmrw. I still have to read my english novel by wednesday, and I'm not even half way through. Boy do I have a lot of work to do for this week.