I can't believe I'm writing in this again. The reason why I'm showing such disbelief and frustration for those of you who don't know why, it's because yesterday at 3:30 in the morning, I decided to make one huge blog about how I felt about my current life, stuff I hate, stuff I like, and just my mental state as it was.... I proceeded to do this for a good solid hour (not even exaggerating). I mean don't get me wrong at all, there was some deep s*it here! When I had finally thought that I poured my heart out completely, I decided to write even more.... I literally had a mental breakdown yesterday (no exaggeration at all), and just explained exactly what was on my mind. When I was finally satisfied or tired or a combination of the two, I finished my entry up and tried to post it. The key word here people is TRIED! I clicked the post button on that biatch, and next thing I know, it erases all of the text, and posts my old wednesday blog again. Honestly, I was soo completely pissed at this system, you wouldn't believe.

But now I guess I'm back, and you know, the feeling is totally lost. Though a majority of the same things are bugging me and tearing me up inside, I just don't think I can replicate what I had written earlier. I think that piece of writing that I lost in the abyss of the internet was easily the most I had ever poured my heart out ever... You know when you get into a big rage fest, and all of the words just come naturally, and then you're trying to describe exactly what you said to a friend maybe a night later, and for some reason, you can't seem to find the words that you found that earlier night, well that's me right now...

Hopefully I can get through this without letting it bug me too much, but frick, that was not cool at all.............. That's all I feel like writing today...

P.S. I'm on two hours of sleep for today because of the long hour spent on writing the blog, and the subsequent time I spent desperately trying to somehow recover that text....Computers are pieces of Sh*t!